I've been reading all kinds of posts on here and other forums and I'm at the point where I think he may come home if he wants to or is able to. I have put up posters, handed out flyers with a couple photos asking if people could check garages, sheds, basements, under decks for him - or call me and allow me to...Everyone has been really nice and helpful, saying they will keep an eye out for him, but I'm simply at a loss. The first week I walked around the neighborhood around dawn and dusk calling for him, with tuna fish in a container, but I haven't done that in a few days. I got depressed and pretty much immobilized except for things I had to do. I checked the neighbors patio and deck areas where he could have hidden under, but no Meowth. I feel horrible that in the past few days I haven't kept up with all my rounds at dusk and dawn looking for him.
He's an both indoor/outdoor cat, but I noticed he really liked being indoors lately. We moved to our new place 2.5 months ago, from a place we lived for a year after we moved to the bay area from Portland, Oregon in March 2011. I don't think he went looking for our old place since it's a few pretty big hills away. I wish I just waited a couple more minutes to let him get back inside before I had to leave for a few hours around 11am April 27th. He did start walking a few steps towards me and the door, then turned around, and sat in a sun spot a few feet from the door on the patio.
I have to be honest, that morning, I looked in his eyes, and had a brief thought of, hmm, his eyes look far away, like something was wrong with him. To make realization of that conscious thought even more alarming is that I had that thought about my former housemate's elderly border terrier the very day she passed away (which was only at the end of January).
I also had a dream, the very night before he went missing, that Meowth came out from under my bed (where he usually is when people he doesn't know are over) - and gave little nose kisses to my nephews who come over and want to meet so badly, but Meowth just stays put under the bed until they leave. I rarely, if ever, have "meaningful" or deep dreams that I recall, so this was odd as well. After he became missing, I thought, was that Meowth saying goodbye to them?
So, part of me was so sick because I thought he could be anywhere outside (I live next to a hillside that is pretty thick w/ brush) and possibly hurt, and I couldn't find him. Then, I thought, there were these very strong signs that he could've just known it was time to go. And, that I knew it was time for him to go - which is odd for me because I'm kind of skeptical about dreams or the way his eyes looked "meaning" anything. However, we were so bonded and connected I wonder if my thoughts and dreams and their timing could have meant anything.
I did have my mother drive up to help me look for him, but she ended up depressing me more and made me kind of give up on finding him by looking for him.
I'm so sad and heartbroken. I've only not cried the in just the past day, and I am fighting a severe depression with him gone. He was the sweetest guy, when I'd cry, he'd hold his paw out to my face and try to comfort me that way like a person would. I feel like I've accepted that either he won't come home because he can't (he's passed on) or hold hope that he will just walk up to my screen door some day.
I need help finding out how much more searching I should do for him. Can anyone help and give me advice?